Saturday, October 18, 2008

4th of the 4th

This is a quick and cute little "tag" that I saw on Seashore's blog (http://www.seashorerose.blogspot.com/)

Go to the 4th folder in the pictures file on your computer....choose the 4th photo in that folder.

This is what I found in that spot:



It is actually a photo from my daughter's facebook album, taken this month.

Son (in law) Vinjelu with his son Seth....out for a walk.

If you want to do this, leave a comment here that you are doing it so I can go look at your 4th of the 4th.

Have a good day!

PS. My weight stayed the same after my unplanned indulgences yesterday. whew! Of course, it could show up tomorrow or the next day, yet.

Friday, October 17, 2008

Uh-Oh

I am going to expect a significant gain tomorrow morning (as in at least 1 pound).

Jim invited ourselves and everyone else to Robert and Lana's to watch the hockey game - Alberta rivalry....Edmonton Oilers vs Calgary Flames. This idea was met with enthusiasm by everyone. Only Michael could not be there as he had to work.

We volunteered to bring some snacks...... A few months ago, Jim and I made a pact with each other to not provide snacks or "treats" to our children/grandchildren that are not healthy. With this in mind, Jim decided to get some crackers and cheese and sausage when we got to town.

I decided to make some cookies - but I wanted to make low fat so Lana could eat at least one. Every recipie for low fat cookies I could find called for applesauce. I had no applesauce and the store is 1/2 hr away so I chose to take my usual chocolate chip cookie recipie and tweak it to make it low fat, low cal, and healthy.

I used diet margarine instead of regular margarine.
I used Splenda instead of sugar.
I used Egg Beaters instead of eggs.
I used Whole Wheat flour instead of white flour.
I used Chocolate Chips - no substitues. BUT I measured them and used only 1 cup instead of just pouring them in.

Of course, I had to taste the batter.

It was not good.

I added 1/4 C brown sugar and 2 Tbs skim milk.

Better, but still not very good.

I added a banana.

Still didn't taste very much like cookies.

By this time, I had probably eaten the equivalent of 3 cookies.

I baked the dough. They came out to be pretty "cakey" and did not taste bad, as long as you didn't expect them to taste like cookies. I only had a bite, honest! I let Jim do the taste test.

When I was looking for applesauce, I came across a box of 94% fat free popcorn in large bags. I brought several boxes of this popcorn (in small bags) home with me when we moved back from Louisiana in the spring. We cannot get 94% fat free here. (at least, I haven't found any) The big bags are a whole 4 or even 6 carbs for me so I thought I would take this box to Lana so she could have an almost fat free treat.

After a quick supper (Meatloaf made with bison meat, carrots from our garden, and potatoes from our garden) we loaded up the "cakeys", the popcorn, and my water bottle and headed into town.

Our first stop was the grocery store where we bought some rice crackers, cheese, and sausage (I know, rather high in fat, but healthier than chips). I also picked up a box of Breyer's 98% fat free ice cream cups for Lana.

Kathryn brought whole wheat wraps which she spread with tuna and cream cheese then cut into bite size pieces.

To my surprise, the cookies were a hit! Danny said they were a cross between a cookie and a muffin. Everyone liked them alot. I still did not have one, and although I had to consciously NOT have a piece of sausage and cheese, it was not hard to resist.

My problem came after I finished my water - the second period of the game was over, and I was beginning to feel hungry. I had 2 of Kathryn's wraps (so good). Then Lana had made herself one of the bags of popcorn but could only eat 1/2. (She has the eating habits of the thin person she is.) She offered me the other half and I took it. That is 2 starches....on top of the approximately 3 cookies I had already "tasted" and whatever the wraps would have counted. THEN I remembered the "ice cream" I bought for Lana. Of course, when I showed them to her, she wanted one right away.

So did I.

2 more starches. I am only supposed to have 4 starches all day. I had already had 2 with my meals before I even left the house!

I feel overfull and more than a little disappointed with myself. I know it wasn't a whole lot, but I just felt like I was letting myself down. Usually, if I indulge, it is with forethought and planning. None of this was planned.

On a positive note, we had a fun family night and considering that it was planned at the last minute, we were very thankful that everyone (but Mike) could be there. Even Victoria came down from the city with Kaden. She brought her Flames (boo, hiss) jersey - mostly to torment Robert, I think. To make up for it, Kaden wore his Oilers bib.

Here are the jerseys on display tonight:



L to R: Kaden, Andrew, Victoria, Robert, Emma


On an even more positive note......The Oilers won!!!!! YAY! (Sorry, Lisa). This broke a fairly long-running "curse"..... for the last couple years, every time Jim and Robert have had the opportunity to watch an Oilers vs Flames game together, the Oilers lose. After tonight, no more.

I don't really know if it was a good game or not....except for the cheering...because I was having fun watching the babies play. Kaden started crawling today for the first time.

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

A Family Day

This is the first chance I've had to post about our Thanksgiving Day. I tried last night, but I
guess there were just too many people on our satelite internet across the country....watching the election results. That is what my man was doing - on his computer (we don't have TV). Since we are in the country, high speed internet is not available to us. There are some companies with wireless, but we are not in line with any of their transmitters. So, we are stuck with satelite or dialup. Satelite is not very fast, but it is like greased lightening compared to dial up. At any rate, we have to share bandwidth with folks all across the country so at high traffic times I just walk away.
Our Thanksgiving day started with daughter Kath, SIL Vinj, grandson Seth, and their friend from Toronto, Trish, arriving just as we were getting up. Soon, Son Daniel was up and about (he had arrived the night before) and then his friend (MR), who was home from college for the weekend walked in. Within an hour, I was taking orders for breakfast from 6 people. MR can not eat eggs (something to do with having worked in chicken barns all his life) so I mixed up a batch of waffles for him. Everyone else had poached eggs and toast and yogurt. Vinj had already gone to bed since he worked all night, drove 1/2 hr to pick up his family, then drove another 1/2 hr to get to our house.
My breakfast was on plan - one poached egg, one piece of toast, fat free, sugar free yogurt.
Jim and I worked for the next hour or so, cleaning up, making stuffing and getting the bird in the oven, while Dan and MR played guitars in the living room and the girls disappeared into the bathroom to curl hair and apply makeup.
That whirlwind had just settled when the next group arrived....Son Rob, DIL Lana, granddaughters Emma, Elizabeth and Sophia. By then, it was noon and of course, they were hungry.....I was informed that the girls had been offered lunch but had said they wanted to wait because "Grandma always has macaroni and cheese". LOL. It is true. Although I never eat the stuff, I always have some "Kraft Dinner" on hand for the girls. So, Mommy Lana made the girls some lunch and raided my fridge to find something for herself. She commented (more than once during the day) that "it is so nice to come here and know that I will be able to find things that I can eat because you always have healthy, low fat food in the house" (Lana is pregnant and has a gallstone so needs to eat fat free).
Son Andrew arrived, without his wife.....their puppy (1 yr old) Thor had broken his leg the day before and Keltie did not think they should bring him out. A couple hours later, Keltie called to say that Thor had to stay in his pen anyway because he kept wanting to chase his tail, etc. so she suggested they could bring him in his pen. Andrew went to get her later in the afternoon.
Back to lunch.....by this time, the kids had set up a table in the living room and were playing Monopoly.
starting at left: Robert, Daniel, Andrew, MR, Trish, Emma
Jim, Rob, and Andrew were all hungry so I made them each a couple grilled cheese sandwiches (fat free cheese slices on whole grain bread)
I stayed on plan by having a bowl of taco soup.
Here is 8 year old Emma. She is old enough to play games with the uncles and aunts. She loves to be a part of the adult activities.
As soon as they were finished with their lunches, Elizabeth (7) and Sophie (5) went out to play. Soon they were back in asking for a basket or something so they could pick apples. (crabapples) They were so excited about this - they were going to keep picking all day and take the apples home so Mommy could make pies or juice. This is what they came up with before they tired of it. At least there is plenty left for the birds over the winter. :)
Lizabeth
Sophia
Andrew came back with Keltie and poor Thor (a purebred Staffie). Everyone was properly sympathetic as Thor was put into his pen. Since our house is pretty small, he was right beside the action for the whole day/evening.
the break is just below his "ankle"
Keltie did much of her visiting sitting right beside Thor
The Monopoly game over, the game was changed to "Skipbo". The little girls joined in this game, and by this time MR had left and our brother in law Ken and nephew Scott had arrived. Jim's sister had the flu so stayed away. Scott and Dan went outside to play some catch......
Scott - still with his ipod sticking in his ear
Dan, making a pitch back. This is not just "playing catch"....this is "see who can make the other yelp in pain when the ball hits his glove"
While the boys are playing catch, Keltie is sitting with her dog, Vinj is still sleeping, and the rest are playing Skipbo, Lana is quietly "nesting" as she calls it......she is learning to knit - her current project, a blanket in both pink and blue since they don't know yet what sex the baby is.
About the time we begin to peel potatoes and carrots (I had pre-cooked the sweet potatoes and the beets the night before), Son Michael, DIL Victoria and grandson Kaden arrive.
I can always count on my man being my main helper at any family gathering. He washed dishes constantly (by hand) so that there was no mounting pile taking up space on the cupboards as well as peeled both potatoes and carrots.
"Uncle Mike" with Emma and Sophia
Kaden - 9 months old, showing off his 6 teeth
Robert....he's been an avid Oilers fan (NHL hockey) since he was about 7 years old. This year, he was chosen (he had to write an essay) to be part of an exclusive hockey pool hosted by the Oilers themselves. It is quite an honor. As part of the perks of being in this pool, he was given an authenic jersey with his last name on the back. He is quite proud of it, as you can see.
For some reason, at one point in the afternoon, the kitchen became "the place to be". Here is an idea of how small it is - and there are at least 8 people in there!
By mid afternoon, Vinj woke up and joined us. Here is a photo of he and Kathryn together:
We had one more guest arrive late in the day - Scott's girlfriend, JR (sister of Dan's friend MR). Scott and his dad picked her up when they left to get our extra table from their house - we had lent it to them last July.
Did I mention my kitchen is tiny? Counter space is limited to begin with and made even smaller by the fact that cupboard space is even more limited - meaning the counters are also storage for things that don't fit into cupboards. Somehow, we manage to feed up to 30 people out of that kitchen without injury to one another. LOL It has become a dance of sorts. It always amazes me that so many people can work together transferring food from pots to bowls to the tables without running into one another or dropping a bowl of potatoes. The girls help with setting the table and putting the food on the table, the boys find chairs for everyone, Lana usually makes the gravy, one of the boys carves the turkey (all have been taught to do a beautiful job of it by their Dad), I direct everything with Jim being my right hand man......
Lana brought her own fat free gravy and fat free stuffing (she had served turkey dinner to her parents the day before). I kept some sweet potatoes out and mashed them without margarine or marshmellows (just a pinch of brown sugar and some cinnamon) and I put the beets in the oven without the customary butter bath. I did not measure or weigh my food, but otherwise, I stayed on plan.
For dessert, I had made pumpkin pies. I don't normally make pies - in fact, when Dan saw me putting them in the oven he just about fainted. "You made pies, Mom!? You don't make pies!? I didn't know you could make a pie!"
Whatever.
I made the pie with fat free evaporated milk and eggbeaters so Lana could have some. I called her and told her to bring some kind of fat free topping for herself though, because I was serving real whipped cream.
I had a piece of pie and a big spoon of whipped cream. I did not feel bad about it at all.
Clean up is done by the boys. This has become a new tradition. At first, I thought "Wow, my boys are growing up...they are more than happy to help" Then I realized why they were so willing........
Towel Snapping Wars.
They had a huge testosterone-driven war at Christmas last year and apparently, they were just waiting to have a rematch.
Scott and Michael
I have always hated towel snapping and when they were young, I forbade it...."Someone will get their eye taken out" and all that. However, now that they are adults, I really have no control over it. I think Michael came out with the most wounds this time. Vinj calmly loaded the dishwasher in the midst of the snapping. I don't know what the brothers and cousin did, because Jim washed the plates and had already washed all the pots and pans. They did assure me that they worked, though.
The evening was rounded out with Poker. Those that don't play, entertained themselves with babies and little girls - and of course, music....someone is always playing a guitar, the piano, or violin (Dan only) at a family gathering.

Victoria and Kaden, Kathryn and Seth



Seth loves when anyone plays a guitar.

People started leaving in the approximate order they arrived. Jim and I walked each group out to their car - the evening was surprisingly warm for October. Michael and Victoria stayed until quite late....we don't get to visit with them as often as the others since they don't live as close by.

So, it was a full day, a full house, and I mostly stayed on plan. (inlcuding the 3 glasses of wine) The next day I was actually DOWN from the weight I was on Sunday. However, to be honest, I think that spike was an anomoly so I will have to be honest and say that I actually gained .4 pounds - that is still the status today.


Saturday, October 11, 2008

Turkey Day coming up

It is Thanksgiving weekend here in Canada.

The temperature has dropped significantly in the last week. In fact, it was only a week ago that we were enjoying the 7th day in a row of over 70F with night time temperatures staying well above freezing.

In this time that the world economy is in upheaval, I think it is good to stop and think about those things that we are thankful for ..... the blessings in our lives. Besides, it IS Thanksgiving.

I am thankful for:
  • A good man that loves me, is kind to me, and encourages me in all things
  • Children who have grown to be good, decent adults who love their Dad and Mom and each other
  • Wonderful, loving spouses for my children - people who truely add to our family dynamic
  • Five of the cutest grandchildren on earth. I'm serious....they are the cutest!
  • Another grandchild on the way.....appearing to be growing healthy in spite of his/her mommy's health problems
  • A gorgeous view out my kitchen window AND out the living room window - Sunrises in the morning, sunsets in the evening.
  • I am thankful for the changes that have been happening in my mind, especially, over the last 10 months
  • I am thankful that I have lost 35 pounds and am feeling better about myself than ever before
  • I have 2 new nephews born this last week - twin boys who look just like their daddy (my brother)
  • My father-in-law has only 3 more radiation treatments left. He has been driving 2 hours every weekday for the last 3 months to recieve treatment, then 2 hours back home. EVERY DAY.
  • My husband has a job that allows him to do the work he enjoys and still be home for 2 weeks of every month
  • My youngest son seems to be finding some direction in his life
  • Old friends
  • New "blogger friends"
  • Extended family
  • My new ipod and speaker dock that my hubby gave me for my birthday - I love having music all day long
  • A hot bath at the end of a busy day

I could probably go on, but I won't.

Our family is coming over for Turkey Day on Monday. We have told them to come early and stay late and that we will be serving breakfast, lunch, and supper. I have no plans for the breakfast or lunch as yet (I don't really expect anyone to come early enough for breakfast) but supper will be :
  • Turkey,
  • dressing,
  • sweet potatoes (with brown sugar, marshmellows, margarine, cinnamon)
  • potatoes from my garden,
  • carrots from the garden,
  • beets from the garden.
  • I am making pumpkin pies tomorrow - only because there were no ready made pies left at the grocery store today. The ready made pies are WAY cheaper and just as good, but......

I need to consider my DIL who has a gallstone (but is pregnant so they haven't wanted to do surgery) and keep as many dishes zero fat as possible. This works with my weight loss goals, of course. I also have another DIL who is vegetarian so need lots of veggies - again, works with my goals. I am hoping it is a pleasant day so the kids can play outside for the afternoon.

I have little to report in regard to weight loss, etc. I got as low as 215.8 over the last week - and stayed there for about 3 or 4 days. Today I am up to 217. I always gain a little when hubby is home - must be the feeling of security. :) Or maybe it is just that I don't DO as much when he is home - we spend more time visiting, traveling around, and just hanging out together than we do working. Tomorrow will be a work day, though.....got to dig the potatoes, carrots and beets out of the garden before the ground freezes them in permanently.

I have been doing better with the water this week, thanks to Lyn's Habit a Week challenge.

Hope I can report a successful Thanksgiving Day - no "infractions", I hope. My weakness will be the dressing and the whipped cream on the pies. Wish me luck!

Happy Thanksgiving! What are you thankful for?

Tuesday, October 7, 2008

Quick look at my life today

I'm moving rather slowly today. I mentioned a few posts back that my hips sometimes give me problems....today is one of those days. I was full of energy yesterday and worked at turning a room full of stuff into a welcoming spare bedroom. Lots of physical labor, but like I said, I was full of energy - it was great! Today, for the first time since we started having babies, we have a room dedicated to having company! That feels good.

Yesterday, Lyn at www.escapefromobesity.blogspot.com posted a challenge of sorts - the first of 16 habits to establish in our lives that will result in a healthier lifestyle.....Drink your water. Before I read her post, I had discussed with my husband some of the "diet" goals I had for this week. The first was to drink all my water every day. I have been slack on this lately. So, the challenge was very timely for me. I actually set a timer to go off every 30 minutes to remind me to go have a drink. And, I got all 2000 ml in!

Something else that I have accomplished in the last couple days - I have gone through all my clothes and packed up 1 1/2 good size bins full of clothing that is too big! Hooray! The thing about having gained weight is that there were things in my closet that were too small but now fit, so I don't need to go replacing a whole lot. That was fun, let me tell you! And to think that I will be able to do it again, probably 2 more times!

I have another project that I am working on today - involving lots of carrying and toting from the trailer into the house. It would go alot faster if I wasn't so stiff.....well, at least my hip doesn't hurt as much as it did last time I posted about this problem. The good thing is that sitting makes it worse - moving helps a little (even though the movement is slow). That being said, I'd better finish up here so I can get moving again.....

Saturday, October 4, 2008

Where my Head is at

I’ve noticed something recently……

I think far less about my weight lately than ever before.

In fact, I hardly ever think about how fat I must look to the person in the grocery line behind me or the person in the car beside me at the red light.

I no longer walk self consciously across the parking lot, and I seldom consider what a fat blob I look like when sitting on a couch (sofa).

What I do think about is food. But even that is different.

I no longer think longingly about nachos and cheese, dark chocolate, cookies, cake, ice cream……..I check labels and if there is a high fat, calorie or sodium count, any desire I had for that item is quickly squashed.

I do think about what I eat, if I’ve eaten, what kind of food I still need to eat, if I eat this or that will I be able to have supper…… I think carefully about food choices. I enjoy the foods that I have learned are healthy choices. I enjoy preparing food for myself, making sure there are good choices to eat when I am in a hurry or just plain lazy.

This new way of thinking has resulted in a slow but steady weight loss, but more importantly, it is setting me free. Free from self-hatred, self-consciousness, worry about what I look like, what people think of how I look, all that garbage.

I am still fat. My BMI still has me in the obese range. If you met me for the first time, you would probably think to yourself something about the fact that I am fat. But it doesn’t matter so much anymore.

I am not talking about not caring. I do care. I care enough to think about what I eat and how much I have moved today (I still need to work on that area, but I am now actually thinking about it). I care enough about myself to want to put healthy food into my body. I care enough about myself to not care what others think. I care enough to take time to look nice for myself.

This new thinking sometimes amazes me. I cannot believe it is even me at times.

Who would have thought that my most successful foray into weight loss would have me thinking less about my weight and more about food?

Wednesday, October 1, 2008

Success along the way

A Milestone was reached yesterday...... I decided to get some new jeans....IF I could get a smaller size. I also thought I'd get a top or two IF I could get a smaller size.

I chose some pants in a 22 and tops in size 20 or 2X. My current jeans are size 24 and have to be hiked up all the time. My current tops are size 22-24 or 2X - 3 X. I determined that if a size 20 shirt was too small, I would not buy anything - same with the pants. I wasn't about to buy anything in the same size because I KNOW that I will not be wearing them much longer.

I had to go out 4 times to get a size smaller than the ones I had chosen!

INCLUDING the pants! In fact, I got one pair in a size 20 (TWO sizes smaller) which are quite comfortable....actually bordering on being too big and a pair of jeans in a size 18!!!! The 18's are comfortable enough to sit in, but are tight enough to show every unsightly roll around my abdomen. I'll need to wear long shirts with them for now. I wasn't going to get them, but there was a "buy one, get one at 40% off" sale and I figured that getting them now at the discount was smarter than waiting until they looked better at full price. For the first time in my life, I did not feel guilty for buying something that I was going to "shrink into" because I KNOW that I will fit them - soon.

I bought a blouse in a size 20, a sleeveless, stylish top in a size 20, a little bolero jacket to wear over it, and a nice "jacket" to dress up my jeans in a 1X!!! I tried on the 2X and realized that it was too big. My daughter convinced me about a year ago that I needed to quit buying big, loose tops - that clothes that actually fit look better, otherwise I would have stuck with the 2X and not even tried the 1X. The 1X really looks alot better.

It was so FUN to be sending clothing back and asking for a smaller size! My first experience with that!

I walked out of that store feeling so good! Who cares what the scale says? Who cares how long this has taken? I AM getting there! And I am experiencing something I've never experienced before in all my other weight loss efforts - success along the way!